What am I doing right now?
Absolutely nothing. I was doing so much nothing, I decided to write about how much nothing I was doing. It would be so easy to study right now, in place of all this nothingness. So easy to go sit somewhere quiet, open up this textbook and just start reading. Yet I don’t. Why is that?
It’s so beyond the point of me pushing this off any further, I have a test tomorrow and there is no denying that I must study. Yet I sit here instead, neglecting that and not even doing anything remotely productive with my time. I physically do not have what it takes to open this textbook, because I know it is just words on a page and I do not have the capacity to understand and retain this information right now. Or ever really for that matter, and I’ve lost all faith in my intellectual capacity, I really do question if I am even capable of academic learning anymore. Or if I ever was, for that matter.
So why do I suck so much?